So I am now half way thru with this plan. I really thought when I detoxed, that I would get a headache and just feel like crap. But instead it came out in a totally different way. All of a sudden I became really onery and bitchy and poor Rob had to go to the garage for a few days. WOW. Didn't even see that coming!! But it's past and I am much more pleasant.
I have lost 10 lbs. in 14 days. It would of been more, but for some reason the last 2 Saturdays we have had stuff to do, and it's been hard to stick with the eating plan. So I used both days for my "cheat days". No major cheating, just ate more calories, but I stuck with proteins, fruits and veggies, and NOT anything with sugar or carbs. But overall I am happy with the loss I've had and I've also lost major inches so I actually look like I've lost more than the 10 lbs.
I feel so much better now that I'm eating all the crappy stuff. And I did expect to have cravings but so far all I'm craving is fruits and veggies. I will be so glad when I can add more of them back into my eating plan. No heartburn, I'm sleeping better and the pores on my face have literally shrunk away! And my clothes fit so much better. NICE.
One afternoon when I was 5 yrs. old, I asked my Grandma why she was making my clothes for school. She replied: Because you are fat and the stores don't make clothes to fit you.
This was the start of my self esteem going down the crapper, and years of self consciousness because of my weight. If I could go back in time; to that exact moment she told me I was fat; knowing now what I didn't know then; I would of told her to "go to hell". Who in their right mind tells a 5 year old that "she"s fat"???? So every year I was in school my school clothes were hand sewn. And if I got something (like a shirt) from a dept. store, when we got home, she would "fix" it so that I could wear it. Once she took me to the old JC Penney's on Main Street in Brigham City and went straight to the "old womens" section. When I told her that the girls section was over there, she laughed and said "there won't be anything over there that will fit you". So she bought me a couple of shirts that were meant for a 40 year old woman to wear: I was still in elementary school.
It amazes me that I am not in therapy 24-7. Maybe I should be. I am now in my 40's and can still hear her telling me "I'm fat".
I thought I was detoxing from all the bad foods that you love to eat. But maybe it's an emotional detox as well. My grandma is no longer here physcially. But the scar is. Emotionally. Mentally.
I have lost 5 lbs. in 4 days. It's probably all the crap I had to eat for the 3 days of gorging/loading that I did. But what I do know, is that I feel better today, than I have in a long time. And my skin is softer. And I have not craved anything that I have given up--food wise--that is.
This is the most strict weight-loss program I have ever been on. And yes, I have tried ALL OF THEM at some point in my life. Maybe this time it will finally work because I am finally ready to loose the weight that has shielded me from the careless words of a woman who would "diet" with me during the day, but at night did not know that I would watch her stuff her face with cheese and crackers.
